Saturday, October 3, 2009

living in florida has changed my life. i love it here and it seems like depression is out! :) things are still hard and i still think of clementine a lot. i know she has gone to a better place but i miss her. my husband misses her and i don't know how to comfort him sometimes. sometimes i feel like my body is not capable of having another child. we have been trying since jan. but nothing yet. it's been almost a year, it's never taken this long. at other times i feel like there is still something that i need to learn from this. . . i don't know what. i ask my father in heaven to give me the strength to know what it is that i need to learn, i ask him to guide me. i don't know if the answer has been given yet, it's hard to be very patient.


i know she is in a better place, i only wish that better place was here with us and maybe someday it will be.